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This story begins in 2019. At that time, I had just graduated and had my graduation ceremony in April. Right after graduation, I went back home to my parents’ house to look for a job and became more active in blogging. Actually, I had been active even before graduating. Because of that, I made a lot of new friends—friends whom I am still connected with even now. Isn’t it magical? I was in a phase of life crisis as a 25-year-old girl, wondering where my life would go next. I was still very confused, wanting to work, but it wasn’t that easy. Until my mother had the idea to send me to pursue a master’s degree at UGM. Of course, that offer was very appealing, even though I later found out that to fund it, my mother had to sell her land assets. I felt so guilty. If only I had known that earlier, maybe I would have declined her offer. It would have been better for me to be her personal assistant because she needed one much more. And yes, I believe it was all part of God’s will. I continu

Let's change to mode : sukurin In every condition 😄 Instead of a bunch of guilty feeling Better i say this is your bad thing i dont care Yours is yours not mine 😌

 Emang ye makin lama manusia itu makin pinter So do I Jd aku bertahun2 dgn konsep feeling guilty smpe akun blog pun namanya jd gini kan haha krn sebab itu tadi Dihantui rasa bersalah Stlh dpikir2 why? Knp aku hrs kaya gini Halooo Nah jadi knp engga Bersikap gini Contoh: Gara2 kamu beliin ayam suwir pedes aku jd diare Instead of ngerasa salah dan sedih dan berpikir ya Allah kok aku salah ya ngasih makanannya No no im no more kaya gitu Tapiiii better gini Hahaha sukurin Emang aku sengaja mau "nyusahin" kamu 😌😌😌😌

 Menjadi orang bermental sehat efek negatifnya adalah kureng maju kaya aku Mungkin aku sekarang di fase enjoy the life gada beban berat mindfull bersyukur tp jadinya aku stuck Tapi kenapa gabole stuck ya Kenapa semua orang harus jadi seleb? Harus jd influencer? Harus jadi orang yang pengikutnya banyak? Harus kamera face? Harus berduit yg bisa bikin naik pesawat bisnis class? Apa gaboleh ya jd org biasa2 aja? Memangnya kenapa kalo engga jadi "main character duniawi?" Entahlah akupun bingung kalopun aku pengen jadi MC duniawi harus kumulai dr mana ya🙄

 Skrg aku tau sih The best way adalah dgn bodo amat Alias dont care Bukan sabar tp bodo amat Jd udh ga pusing lagi Gada kecewa jg Krn udah bodo amat Krn byk hal yg jauh lbh utama utk dpikirin Kaya hobi dan kesukaan diri sendiri Impian2 sendiri Pokoknya self love lah Bnr2 ga ngurus slain diri sendiri dan anak2 Itu lbh damai dan fair sih haha Im so worthed  No one can make me down/ sad And i can make myself take abundant of happiness Bahagia kita yg buat

 I'm thinking about my mother. No, not about her flaws. It's just a different perspective between my mother and me. My mother often complains, saying that none of her children help her. It's easy to conclude that the children must be at fault, and I admit it, especially since I live far from her. But then I look at myself as a mother. I take care of my three children without any help. Even my husband is very busy, so it's truly just me serving him and the children. My thoughts and energy are focused there, especially since my children are still young and not independent yet. It feels like these moments are very long, like changing diapers for the youngest, which feels like doing it hundreds of times over years. So, I think when they become independent and grown up (especially when they're married), it will be my time to be truly free as a mother. But why doesn't my mother feel that way? In her old age, she seems perpetually exhausted and feels unhelped. Why does